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The Comeback; Life Update & Writing With A Purpose

A few nights ago, I received a text message from my best friend. It was the message that I didn’t know I needed, forcing me to face the fact that at this point, I have been long over due to get back to the assignment God has given me when it comes to my writing and using my platforms.

One time for the ones who love us enough to hold us accountable. It is because of that message that I’m here right now, back to share whatever I am lead to, in hopes that it reaches the very person that is trying to navigate their way to push in their purpose. Welcome back to your safe place. I am so happy to be here with you!

The last time I was here, I basically was in the place where I was just tired; tired of sharing the same old story of how I wish things were different and how I wanted to be in this place in my life that I just wasn’t able to walk in to. That was January. It is now September and I still feel the same, y’all. The only difference is now, I am not ashamed to admit that. I can say that I have not given moving out of that rut my all. I have not been consistent enough to see the change that I desire and because I have not done the work, I cannot be mad at the fact that I’m still here. Now there are a few changes, but overall, I do not feel like the version of myself that I know I am suppose to be.

There was a point where I was doing well, even going to therapy like I talked about in the last blog. Within the last 4 months I have not had a session because there was some sort of disconnect with my therapist at the time. I felt like it was no longer a good match. It has been difficult for me to think about starting over and sharing all of that information over again with someone new. I have allowed that to keep me from pursuing the healing of my inner child that is so necessary in moving forward with who I want to be as a woman. Sharing this with you guys is making me realize that I have just been complacent, ignoring the things I need to do because I honestly, just don’t feel like doing the work required. I’m tireddd. And for the first time in my life, I just want to rest. However, there is a thin line between resting and being lazy. I hope I stepped on a few toes with that one.

Don’t worry, I am in that same boat, girl.

When we last spoke, I was in this place in my career where I wanted more. I did not feel as if I was using my skill set to the best of what I am capable of. I had been praying for a change in my job for so long, and finally after about a year of praying, God said yes. He gave me a position at a local hospital on the oncology unit and I have been at this job since February. I am now asking God for a different job because I hate it here. LOL, but nah. Im forreal. I don’t know if its being back in this type of setting, the pandemic, or the lack of respect these corporations and honestly, the general public, has for nurses these days— I just have come to a point where I cannot deal with it. I just think it’s funny how never satisfied people can truly be. I cried for God to move me from a place and when He granted my request, after many “no’s” I now understand the importance of being content where you are and the significance that every season holds. So I am waiting for my next. In the meantime I have been enjoying becoming a small business owner of my own event planning and decor company, House of Jimenez. It’s my baby and I am looking forward to building, expanding and hopefully retiring from bedside nursing to pursue entrepreneurship full-time.

As far as family life goes, things are good. God spoke to me about a particular thing in such a way where I have come to a place where I no longer feel the torment that once held my mind and spirit so captive. I feel like I was at the brink of losing my mind, and He came and did something only He can do. This has brought me much comfort and I am able to face the days a little easier because of this. The boys are great and we have just been learning together. They make me want to be so much better. They make me realize that by healing myself, they never have to heal from me and by being happy, I am able to make them happy. I can’t ask for much more than that. I am still working on the being truly happy part right now, but aren’t we all?

So y’all, that my life update in a nutshell. Obviously there are other things in-between, but we’ll leave it at that for now. Moving forward.

My main goal in finishing out this year strong is making sure that I am not just writing blogs— I want to ensure that I am writing with a purpose; that what I share with you all from here on out is intentional. Many do this for the trend. I do it because I was called. And it may not seem like much to some, but to me, it is everything. I have received so much love and women seeking help as a response to the things that I’ve shared here. That is not a coincidence. Someones breakthrough relies on me being obedient to my calling. On the other side of my obedience is another woman’s breakthrough. I am ready to grab your hand again, sis. Let’s get back to work.